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Tuesday, July 5th 2016

another cuck tease

Another teasing email to the cuck I call Dicklet......it is an amusement to me. I do get rather hot and horny teasing it....he is an it as its unworthy of being called male, a embarrassment to the male race. Knowing it will never get a Goddess, a female to fuck as it cant stay hard and it cant do anything more then 2 hand pumps before leaving a pathetic ooze. This is what makes Goddess happy and what gets Me going and fucking My real man (well one of the things)

This is the email I sent before I had a nice hard fuck from My Real Man that left me sated in bliss.
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I am in the tights you have brought and will be fucking your Master before he goes to work....using his cock as I see fit, teasing him with my lovely round arse wiggling over his body as his massive member twitches into life. I bet you want to inhale the scent between my arse cheeks before I play with your Master.

I will make him hard and growling with anticipation to my glorious teasings. He will be ravenous with Lust. Something a pointless little pin dicked loser like you would have no experience of, no one wants a sub par specimen of Manhood......you havent even come close to boyhood.

wonder what positions I will be using when I use his perfect big dick?

I will tell you more when I post your lucky treat out, you undeserving little cuck slut!

Saturday, July 2nd 2016

Tweenie is now owned

My Girly sissy Tweenie is now owned, this was her experience as we spent a week together at Download Festival and shopping in Manchester. She paid for it all and was a perfect little submissive, tended to my feet, wrapped me in a towel after showering and keep me supplied in gin. The Irish Gin was a beautiful touch from my irish girly!
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Goddess Kikkaj, Download and a man with a damn big needle

After a pleasant plane and train ride I arrived in Sheffield. I jumped on the train that would take me to castle donnington. I had of course been chatting to Goddess all through the journey. I was eagerand anxious to meet up with my Goddess again. The train was going to st pancreas and I was onlygoing to be on it for an hour or so. As the train arrived into a station, Goddess texted to say that Her train was nearly arriving. I laughed as I knew that my train would probably arrive before Goddess's train. So I would be there before Her and be ready to greet Her off the train.Coming into the next station the train slowed to a stop. After a few minutes, I texted Goddess to say that my train had stopped. goddess texted back to say that Her train was delayed too.I then thought, I wonder what train Goddess is getting. Low and behold Goddess was getting the same train as me. I was so excited, I told Goddess the carriage I was sitting in and moments later my Goddess was sitting beside me.

O/our first night together was watching trash tv and having mud face packs lol. I loved this and of course Goddess had some gin which I brought for specially for Her. Which I am glad to say She enjoyed very much.

The following three days W/we spent at Download listening and watching all the amazing bands, drinking hobgoblin and wading through (not very nice) mud. All the while Goddess was amazing company and a brilliant companion over the three days. I will always remember those three wonderful days of Download.
Of course each night I enjoyed my duties of massaging Goddess's beautiful feet with soothing lotion. I adored the softness and exquisite beauty that Goddess allowed me to care for Her.
On Monday, W/we left Download and arrived in Manchester, due to traffic problems W/we arrived late in the day and after the excesses of the previous few days managed a exquisite Indian meal and some drinks.

Throughout my time with Goddess, She had an uncanny ability to pick really good restaurants and bars. They are not expensive restaurants but ones where the food is almost as gorgeous as Goddess. It is I think her super power lol.

On Tuesday W/we travelled to Stockport to take in a mystery tour which I had planned as a surprise for Goddess until someone gave the game away. I must admit to being mischievous all weekend, as I was dropping hints to Goddess. Unfortunately when W/we arrived there were problems which meant W/we couldn't take the tour. Goddess's disappointment was plain to see.However O/our Goddess is very resourceful and turned the day into a shopping trip for lingerie for me instead and I ended up with a wonderful silky night dress and luminous pink panties. It was perfect shopping with my Goddess. I enjoyed that time so much, a wonderful shopping experience.

Back in Manchester Goddess again used Her super power to find a restaurant doing delicious gin Cocktails and scrummy food.

Wednesday was a very important day for me. Today Goddess took ownership of this sissy. Goddess laid on a wonderful ceremony for me which left me in sissy subspace. The ceremony was to culminate in me receiving my first piercing as a sign of Her ownership. I was to have a reverse pa.After a substantial late breakfast, Goddess's super powers again. W/we set off for the piercing studio where after a wait, W/we were ushered into a cubicle. Goddess had already allowed me to pick a pink ring. In the cubicle things moved fast, I was quickly lying on the bench my sissy tattoo fully exposed for all to see.
Next the guy showed me where the needle would go. Within seconds I felt the needle slide through and out the other side. As this was happening Goddess was gently stroking my forehead reassuringly. Instantly the ring was in and my jeans were on again. Although a little uncomfortable myself and Goddess spent a wonderful afternoon together a little shopping and then W/we decided to return and find out if W/we could do the brewery tour. Where W/we enjoyed some excellent beers and banter.
In the evening, W/we tried out some cocktail bars in Manchester W/we had heard about on the tour. Both were amazing and one in particular has to be tried to be believed if you are ever in Manchester lol.

That night back in O/our room W/we enjoyed a girly evening with face packs and a little gin. Today was my girlhood, the piercing made me bleed and had to wear a panty liner in my panties, Goddess chose thick ones. She joked saying woman bleed for 5 days and dont die, welcome to womanhood.

All too soon it was Thursday, O/our last day together. W/we had a late breakfast and mooched a bit, before one last pint of the exquisite hobgoblin and then it was time to head to the train station.
W/we waited for Goddess 's train and I felt low as I had such a wonderful week with Goddess and found it hard to make conversation as I knew in a few minutes Goddess would be gone. As always it was that moment, I hugged Goddess and said good bye. I knew then that I had to concentrate on other things. Goddess left to catch Her train, I just focused on where I had to go for mine as I was already sorely missing my Goddess and Owner. looking forward to O/our next excursion.

Friday, July 1st 2016

an adoration letter

I had this wonderful email from one of my pets who I call My Bitch, and it made me smile, so much so I thought I would share it. I had this after a busy week catching up on custom clips and panties so really did boost my mood.

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This is my letter of adoration, adulation and admiration.

Since I first met you I have been blown away by you - not just by your physical attributes, though they are in themselves incredible - your beauty, your sensuality, your sexuality, and your phenomenal feminine body are all enough to drive any man to distraction and bring him to his knees.

What has overwhelmed and overtaken me though has been your incredible power - your presence and poise. The way that you can walk into a room and it's like the room takes a small gasp, there is a lull for men like me and our attention is immediately drawn, as if by a magnet, towards the superior Goddess that has entered, and our knees go weak as we instinctively recognise a ruler over our kind.

Add to that your incredible, smart, agile, beautiful mind, that can out think, out manoeuvre any male in your sights and you are everything I had ever dreamed of in terms of a superior, no a supreme female!

You are a woman that weilds total and ultimate power over the men she has broken and enslaved and seeing what you have done to my fellow slaves under your rule - the piercings, the tattoos, has left me totally breathless. Knowing that I am just one of many men that live beneath your total rule - be they chaste, pierced, or even having to beg you to be allowed a drink blows my mind.

I am not worthy to be your slave - I know that as well as you do, but I am incredibly, grovellingly, grateful that you allow me to serve you as one of your toys, your possessions, your slaves, your bitch.

You are the Goddess that haunts my dreams, controls my mind, and owns my chastity

You have taken a man and broken him in every way, I am now just your bitch Goddess

humbly and utterly under your control

bitch

Tuesday, May 31st 2016

Dicklet task and email

Dicklet is the cuckold boy who is under control and quite the submissive. He is trying to learn how to please cock and get it hard. He now adores My tights and used condoms. This is the email and task I am sending him. He really is an amusement.
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The warm weather must be making real man hornier. Your Master couldnt leave me alone yesterday....we had sex more then once.

Outside naughty sex which was quick and furious- I allowed him to have me in doggy.....it would have been interesting having a bitch underneath to catch any dribbles

Then in the evening, he rubbed me through my tights(the ones you are buying) until my dress slipped and my glorious breasts were on show. he gobbled and played with them until I forced him on his back on the sofa. he ripped a hole in the tights so more scent can be collected for you as we played around them this time. I spat on his cock for lube and rode it until he got close, then I told him to get a condom for dicklet (yes I mentioned you in our sex and your Master didnt throw up or get turned off hahahha). So he slipped on a nice big condom as we know you will try it on your blow up doll boyfriend and enjoy the taste, and he then tried to slip it in. I didnt want to make it easy so I closed and made it very awkward...he had to force it through and really want my lush Goddess pussy. He was very manly and tried to push through my legs and use his force to keep them open before slipping in. Eventually, I allowed him to come to my warmth.

He pounded harder and faster, grunting like a primal thing and banging hard against something you can only dream of. He was rock solid where you cant stay hard for a couple of minutes. you really are pathetic compared to a real man, especially one who is like your Master. No competition there!

Of course your Master ended by filling up that big condom with thick creamy cum, all ready for our little dicklet.

So what your going to do with the condom- put it on your boyfriend and he will use you..both anally and orally and then you may eat the thick creamy spunk while wearing My tights. Such a lucky little dicklet!

Wednesday, April 20th 2016

cuck email

I sent this to a cuck I have recently aquired and thought would share my lovely account of fucking a REAL MAN!
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hahha so you can only dream of it when you wank.....I will allow you to wank and get close with this...but since you cant get/stay hard you wont cum today!

Your Master was ravenous and really need to fuck. It was so passionate and rough.
He grabbed me and dragged me to bed, we lay together working up the need of sex. I tossed his huge cock slowly in my hand while he rubbed my sweet clit. Kissing me and biting me...true passion that a real man can offer a real woman. Heavy breathing and bodies getting closer. I teased the end of my Real Man's cock and he was very stiff and twitching when I did this, ready to enter me. I was so very wet and wanting him to enter me.
I lay back and he slipped the condom on, the condom you may purchase if you ask very nicely. He also added a vibrating cock ring to add to our fun. He stood at the end of the bed, I lifted my legs to his body and your Master entered me. It felt so good, so comforting as he slipped into me. We didnt start slow this time, we wanted it quick and hard. But this didnt go for long and he was moaning a lot, I slowed it down. I did this by slipping my strong powerful legs around his waist and held him closer to me so can feel the vibrations more with the cock ring.
I told him I wanted to ride his massive thick dick until he came hard. So we swapped all the while he grabbed my arse and lush round tits. A body you wish you could go near, but you are an unworthy cuckold boy...so hearing this and getting my after sex treats are the closest you get!
I slipped on to his cock and rode sitting up. Bouncing harder and grinding as I went. He was moaning so hard and I was making enough noise to combat it. The vibrations were building me up nicely and I found a pace which had him on edge and me building. I didnt want to stop so I kissed him hard, tongue slipping in as I fucked him in rhythm.
He grabbed my arse and shuddered as I came so hard and felt it gush slightly from me. We came together....mutual orgasms.....something a useless wannabe male wouldnt know about.

My body is sore from it today!

I hope next time to record some of the sounds for you if you beg us with a bit more then the message before without me saying you need to work on it!

So be a good little dicklet cum slut for me!

Thursday, February 4th 2016

Manchester sissy meet review

Review of meeting and staying with my sissy tweenie in manchester
Manchester Goddess Kikkaj and a tattooed Lady

At lunchtime Monday past, I again met Goddess Kikkaj at Manchester train station. Goddess appeared before me as if She had teleported in. I felt the air sucked out of my lungs as I was struck by Her ethereal beauty once again. I was quickly whisked off to O/our hotel by Goddess.

After entering O/our room, I immediately dropped to my knees and asked permission to kiss her shoes. Permission was granted and I gently kissed each of my gorgeous Goddess's shoes. A wave of total submission engulfed me. Goddess never looked to heavenly and powerful. I was then placed in my sexy pink chastity device. Knowing Goddess will have my key until She decides other wise.

As W/we had an appointment W/we left and thirty minutes later W/we arrived. W/we enter the tattooists and were met by two wonderful Ladies who quickly drew up a stencil from Goddess's idea. Next I knew my pink panties were down and the tattoo was started. Goddess gave me support as my pubis was skilfully changed forever.

With my tattoo complete, I was floating as W/we made our way back to the hotel. After entering our room I prepared a cocktail for Goddess. Before Goddess touched the cocktail Goddess told me to prepare for my punishment. Unfortunately I had accumulated some transgressions which Goddess had decided could only be resolved by a heavy hit or two of Her amazing black synthetic cane.

I was told to bend over and Goddess applied her punishment to my bottom. I loved Goddess's cane's touch whilst being sharp and hot, I knew I deserved it and that Goddess enjoyed applying it. After nine strokes, I knelt kissed Goddess's feet and kissed Her cane. My bottom throbbing and sore, however my adoration of Goddess could not be greater. I was totally and utterly entranced by Goddess.

W/we then went and had some wonderful hobgoblin (an ale Goddess introduced me to), chat and food. A wonderful evening listening to Goddess about all Her interests. On arriving back in the hotel I assisted Goddess with preparing for bed. I applied lotion to Her beautiful legs and feet kissing each toe and foot after I had finished. Goddess's feet were so soft and elegant I treated them as if they were delicate porcelain. I was overwhelmed with pure joy that Goddess allowed me to pamper Her.

On Tuesday W/we went shopping and Goddess decided to have me purchase some new lingerie for Her which I readily agreed too. Goddess purchased some very beautiful and alluring lingerie which I happily paid for, I had to wait in the store and discuss with the shop about designs. On returning to the hotel Goddess made me strip Goddess then made me lie down and flogged me,spanked me and caned me, I forget which order as my head was spinning and I was floating. Goddess then told me to turn over, I had to put on a blindfold so I lay there while Goddess attached clamps to my nipples and balls.

A pair of Goddess's heavily scented panties was placed over my nose. I inhaled in the scent of heavy musk, which I think drove me to the edge of delirium. I had seen her in these, only now do I realise that she was teasing and showing me what I was getting. Goddess then used her pin wheel on me, all over my body. By now I was in ecstasy. I had been in chastity for six weeks, so Goddess decided it was time. A wand was applied to my clit and balls.

By now I was lost in a world of pleasure and I remember all I could say was thank You Goddess. At this point Goddess had enough and put Her glorious panties in my mouth. They tasted of heaven and Goddess then brought me to the conclusion. I was spent, I felt so dreamy and as if all that had gone before was unreal. I am hazy about the exact details as it was so wonderful and even now feels like a dream.

Afterwards myself and Goddess had a wonderful meal in a restaurant that Goddess chose. W/we then went to a local munch. Here Goddess and myself enjoyed an evening of laughs and fetish chat.This was my first munch and I thank everyone involved for support. At the hotel I again helped Goddess prepare for bed. Only this time Goddess requested a massage. I began with Goddess' shoulders and being as gentle as I could be, rubbed and massaged Goddess neck, shoulders, back, legs and feet. I was honoured and so proud to perform this service for Goddess. Her skin so soft and delicate, I was in heaven.

On Wednesday after breakfast W/we went shopping, Goddess purchased a new Pandora bracelet upon which She also bought a lock and key charm to signify my pledge of chastity to Her. My chastity key has also been attached. W/we continued shopping and Goddess picked up other treats which drained my wallet, however I loved every moment of pampering my Goddess. I can't wait until I can treat my Goddess like this again. She just walked around saying what she wanted and I handed over my card. W/we spent a wonderful day chatting laughing and just enjoying the day. I also carried Goddess's purchases and opened doors throughout O/our stay together as a good sissy submissive should.

In the evening W/we enjoyed a sumptuous Chinese meal and drinks. W/we then returned and again I was stripped and Goddess used Her dragon tongue on me. It was extremely sore but I wanted to endure it to prove to Goddess my devotion as Her sissy. Now I am now just putty for Her to mould and play with.

Afterwards I watched as Goddess put on Her strap on. My nerves were jangling now as I knew I was about to take my sissy pussy virginity. Kneeling Goddess made me put a covering on it with my mouth, She laughed as I did this. Once this was accomplished I knelt on the bed and Goddess gently probed me. Then I felt Her strap on and then it was inside me. I felt complete as Goddess gently took my virginity.

Goddess made me stand and then reached into Her bag and produced Her whippy stick I did not know what was in store. Suddenly I heard a whoosh and my clit screamed in pain. Quickly Goddess applied another two strokes. My clit was on fire and bruised. Two welts shone brightly on it I could have cried, as I never felt so devoted to Goddess. I kneeled and kissed Her feet and also kissed Her whippy thing. I was so happy, my clit ached but I was a happy sissy. Goddess and I then hugged and I enjoyed Her wonderful embrace. Then I made her more of the Gin cocktail She enjoyed the first night and we talked about music, before She went to bed I lay the cash tribute at her feet and a small gift I purchased before seeing Her.

All too soon it was Thursday, as Goddess was leaving first. W/we went to the train station together. Where W/we discussed over coffee and hot chocolate future plans and meetings in a few months time. Of course Goddess's train was preparing to leave. Myself and Goddess hugged I was very sad, as O/our dreamlike time together was over. Tears welled in my eyes and then my Goddess left for Her train I turned and walked away. However I felt the urge to turn back and see Her one last time. Unfortunately Goddess had gone and only then did reality hit me like a bullet. Was it a dream?

Monday, January 4th 2016

new year and new plans

I trust we all had a festive season which was full of fun....mine was filled with treats and delights from my fans and admirers. I would like to thank you for spoiling me and making it a wonderful time.

New year means new plans. I plan on touring more, seeing the world and meeting more of the lovely submissives and companions for events and dinner meets etc.
For my lovely panty lovers out there, I have now made a panty club, only 5 of each spaces in each club, so get in quickly and early. I love to hear how they have been used so thought this is a great idea to mix it up and create an easier deal for my panty sniffers and knicker admirers.

3-12 month plans and with some lovely savings in my wet knickers and more to be added in the future. I cant wait to see what happens.

I will be making more so keep an eye on my marketplace and building up online profiles.

Unfortunately I seem to be taking a backstep from sissy training as want to build up elsewhere, I will be still available for dress up help, make up advice and of course sissy slut training.

I am off to Manchester from the 24th with my sissy tweenie for in-depth training and have plans to go to west Bromwich events towards the end of the month, hope to see you there!

I also offer pay per spank on mondays now t get my motivation going

Thursday, December 3rd 2015

Terminology thoughts.....

Although many of us dislike the use of labels and terms as we are all wonderfully unique people, we all use them to some degree.

Generic terms are used ie 'findom' shows where we are and with what fetish or denomination of domination and 'Superior' to show we are the dominant of the relationship and 'slut payer' for one who is used as a community payer/whore or likes to jump from one to another, these are just a few.

If a person was to get offended with said labels or terms, where none is meant...should they be offended at the person using it? Are they allowed to be offended at the terms being used? Or is there another reason as to what or why behind it all.

I myself have offended someone with such a term which is why this blog came about. Its not to cover my arse, not to say its their fault they were offended and to show how little I care for them.....but to make people think. I do wonder why they are offended when none is meant, as it is a label which is often so freely used....was it because that makes them feel inferior....yes on a site such as this there are still people who deserve respect and are not wanting to feel the inferior aspect...I hear you take in a sharp breath!
Yes they are allowed to feel this but at the same time Eleanor Roosevelt said it well, “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent”.

Maybe its the terms that should be changed...or that this one term was not suitable for said depiction of the submissive in question.
Maybe its labels in general as being pigeon holed is hard for any one person.
So they are hurt at such a label and it has made them feel something unpleasant, how do we sort this?
Communication is the key!
So submissives, instead of jumping off and being offended and getting uptight....think as to why this offends and how to resolve...we can all argue behind computer screens but discussing and speaking is much more adult. Even the jaded replies are unhelpful so take a breath and think it over.
Dominants, show the thinking reasons, maybe discuss as to the how and why the things were used. If the submissive isnt interested then simply move on, you have said your piece and the fit wasnt made to work, this time. Or maybe you really dont care about that submissive in question so this blog is pretty irrelevant.

For those who know me, I dont like to offend, I dont like to force (non consensually) and certainly dont want to cause issues. I like things to slowly move forward and tease over time like a nice gin on a hot day in the field.

So this blog has made me ponder, get annoyed and re think things....which in my mind is a good blog. I think looking and learning is very important to growth and development.
I am unsure if this will have any impact or change my thought patterns but it has opened my eyes to terminology and how its perceived. Words are powerful and at times I think its easy to forget that!

Monday, October 26th 2015

Shopping pet now becoming slave

this pet started as a shopping amusement tool and now is slowly becoming enmeshed in my web to total slave control.
Here is the review so far, written by him.
How can I describe the indescribable...? I first talked to Goddess KikkaJ on a webcam and found her to be friendly, funny, genuine, but most of all truly dominant, not just playing at it. This was probably the element that piqued my interest and over time we talked more and more, and in ways more and less subtle she started to control me. She had me remove all privacy from my twitter account so the world could see my previously carefully hidden submissive nature. She made me write on my status when she placed me in chastity and gave me her submission mantra to say morning and night on my knees while edging. I had to thank her publicly for having to pay her for my chastity and pay her to beg for permission to release, and the more power she took, the more I found my head spinning whenever she talked to me.

Eventually things got to the point where the Goddess felt a real time meet was in order, just a coffee to chat and see if what I offered as a submissive matched what she sought as a dominant, the Goddess is very selective when it comes to who serves her. By this time I had been saying my mantra and edging without being allowed release for something close to two weeks and I was completely under the Goddess' control, so I begged her to be allowed to bring money to take her shopping, to be allowed to carry her bags, and to bring enough cash for a session should she decide I was worthy - all things she graciously agreed to.

When the day eventually came I was beyond excited, every car that slowed me down on the roads was an agony (and there seemed to be a lot that day) and the Goddess stayed in touch with me via text, teasing me with what was about to happen and what she had waiting. When I eventually got to the town I went to the pub where we were due to meet and texted the Goddess that I was there, she told me she would be there soon and I ordered her a drink and waited. I didn't have long to wait (though it felt like an eternity) until she appeared. It was a big pub, and even though the Goddess had never seen a picture she picked me out immediately from across the room, smiled and walked over to where I stood, shaking, with her G&T and a glass of water for me (all the money I had was the Goddess' this day, I felt it would not have been appropriate for me to have spent anything on myself).

In person the Goddess is a very attractive woman, with long honey brown hair and amazing, mesmerising eyes. She had appeared in pretty normal street clothes as this was a drink and a chat, but that didn't take anything away from the aura of power and authority that exudes from every pore, even when she's just talking normally and more than anything this is what hits you when you meet her. From the moment I layed eyes on the Goddess KikkaJ I felt my eyes drop, and I acted as her servant because it was naturally how I felt before her. I followed the Goddess to a quiet table and we had a really nice talk about our relative views of the dynamic and driving forces in play between dominants and submissives, and found that on many things we were aligned. Even through this conversation, and although we had only just met, there was no question over who was in charge, the Goddess could shut me up with a single loo and on occasion I found myself begging for her forgiveness after not answering a direct question or accidentally talking across her, and kissing her hand in thanks when she gave it.

After the drink I was allowed to take the Goddess shopping, I took her bag and directed her to the car, following a pace or two behind her and opening doors for her as felt natural. In the shop the Goddess gave me instructions and we searched for shoes for her, when she found one that she liked, I was told to kneel before her (in front of the entire shop) and changed her boots for the new ones, to see whether they fitted. I remained kneeling while she tested the fit, and when she returned and said they did fit, I asked, still kneeling, whether I might be allowed the honour of buying them for her. She smiled and said yes and I can't tell you how grateful I was in that moment. I also tried to talk her into buying other things while she was there, but she was satisfied and didn't want anything else, so I was allowed to buy her the shoes and carry them for her out to the car.

After shopping I bought the Goddess lunch in a lovely pub near her, where she subtly, but definitely, let the barmaid know that she was in charge of the pair of us and I was her bitch! When the Goddess had finished her pint and her sandwich (I was ordered to eat her leftovers) she agreed stated that I was suitable and told me that I would be going back to hers (I was elated!!!).

At the Goddess' house I was ordered to strip and knelt, naked, on the wooden floor of her playroom, before the woman that had controlled me not just for today, but for so long. I placed before her a gift of Gin, tonic and limes that I had bought in duty free as an offering to her (what she had me do on that plane to amuse her is another story!), and grovelled before her on my hands and knees. Now that we were in an intimate setting the Goddess' power seemed to increase tenfold and I could barely breathe before her, my mind completely turned to jelly as I grovelled before her. I was ordered to kiss her boots, and when she was happy with this, I was ordered to remove them and worship her feet (it is a testament to how destroyed my mind was that I slipped and called her Mistress by mistake - I was slapped for my impertinence, and I completely deserved it!!!).

I kissed and licked and worshipped with love and adoration every inch of the Goddess' feet as she sat above me and giggled. I also laid the tribute for the session out at her feet, and then put out all the money in my wallet on the side as per the Goddess' instructions. At this point I was allowed to start masturbating at her feet, as she came in close to my face and taunted me about my slavery to her, about the power she held, and how I was nothing. Every time I came close to the edge she'd stop me, and make me put another note onto her tribute if I wanted to continue... I kept adding, grateful for the opportunity to continue masturbating at her feet, and becoming more submissive to her with every stroke. I started to fantasise that when her face was so close to mine, my mouth unconsciously opening in my desperation for her, that she would spit into my mouth and show me my place (I found out later she almost did!). By the time she allowed me my first cum, it is safe to say, my mind was in a puddle at her feet, along with my cum. Her condition for allowing me to cum was that I would have to lick it up from her feet if I did, and so, even though the fire of submission had literally exploded out of me, I found myself before her powerful, steely gaze, bowing my head during post orgasm and licking up my cum from her feet, still obedient, still under her power.

So how to summarise this... Goddess KikkaJ is a true female superior - an alpha in every way, her presence, her aura, everything about her screams of her power to a submissive's mind and she revels and enjoys the power that gives her over weak males - she is not playing, she is the woman that we've all been looking for and if you are lucky enough to be accepted by her then you are a very lucky sub indeed! She is real and she is honest, and as this is her lifestyle, not just a job, there is never a moment when she is not completely in control. By the end of my first session with Goddess, my mind was dreaming up ever more powerful scenarios where she would use me as a toilet, cuckold me with her partner, have me serve her while she enjoyed other slaves etc., as it tried to find a level to show this woman just how deeply my submission to her power went. No, she is not always dressed in leather and PVC and carrying a whip (though she looks incredible when she does), but she does embody everything that a submissive dreams of in their female owner.

Yours

someone lucky enough to have knelt before the Goddess KikkaJ

Tuesday, October 20th 2015

sissy meeting task

I tasked my sissy about the meet we had and to write thoughts and feelings about it all, as we are planning on meeting next year in Dublin, hiring and staying on a barge together,for Saint Patrick's Day. This is her reply!

"Once upon a time a little sissy caught a train to a city far far away. The reason he did this was because he was meeting Goddess Kikkaj and HeadMistress. The journey was pretty uneventful. This sissy just getting more nervous as he approached his destination.

On the journey, he was in sporadic contact with Goddess as She and HeadMistress were also travelling. Arrangements were made to meet for coffee. This sissy just sat and tried to take his mind off his nervousness at his impending meeting.

By the time he reached the far far away city. Goddess and HeadMistress had changed their plans as they needed to get some essentials. This little sissy decided to get some lunch and check into his hotel. To waste time and to help quell some of his nervousness, he had a couple of drinks in the glorious autumn afternoon.

Checked in,this sissy patiently waited for Goddess to contact him. Finally Goddess told me to be outside a bar in 30 mins. I quickly left the hotel and walked the mile or two, to where Goddess had asked me to go to meet Her.

I arrived at the pub, texted Goddess to let her know, I had arrived. Goddess texted back telling me to wait. I waited, I dunno for how long. My heart was beating fast, I was craving a cigarette but did want Goddess's first impression of me to be cigarette smoke. I noticed it had clouded over a little and became dull.

Then suddenly the sun shone through and just as it did Goddess and HeadMistress emerged from a doorway. OMG Goddess and HeadMIstress appeared, two breathtaking, enchanting and stunning visions of beauty.

Goddess with her Raven hair tied up and classically beautiful face of Ivory, whilst HeadMistress stood before me. An elegant and very fine featured beauty of a Lady. I curtsied nervously, nearly falling over. They both greeted me so warmly and I instantly felt at ease. I was then lead to the pub.

I say I was lead to the hostelry but I felt I was gliding. I never felt more like a sissy in my life. Without a word, both these enchanting Ladies had already cast a spell upon me, that I knew I would not be unable to resist.

HeadMistress, was so warm and friendly, with a personality the size of the Atlantic Ocean. Goddess Kikkaj, so charming and warm, whilst letting me know I was Her sissy, not with any words, just body language which was enough. W/we sat there for what seemed like seconds my head spinning and then headed out into the city. HeadMistress and Goddess dined in a bar of their choosing, where a sharing platter was ordered. I as a good sissy ate the scraps they left. I was so honoured to eat their discarded food. I was their toy, my will was theirs to control. I was in awe, and dare I say in adoration of two Superiors.

From there the night developed into an evening of laughter, fun and just girly chit chat. HeadMistress taught this sissy a very important service. How to light a Ladies cigarette, something this sissy adored and will cherish forever. W/we listened to some music in a bar and HeadMistress told some experiences from Her life which enthralled me.I ensured that both our most precious jewels were safely delivered to their hotel.

The next day began after Goddess let me know when to arrive at their temporary abode. Again I waited outside until They decided I was worthy of their presence.

W/we sought breakfast, which turned out to be gloriously Irish. Three Irish coffees, to blow the cobwebs away tee hee. W/we dined on some Irish food took some pictures with Molly Malone and went shopping .

As a break from shopping W/we enjoyed a few drinks in the sunshine outside, Goddess gleamed in the sunlight, Her beauty even more radiant, as each sunbeam fell across Her. HeadMistress's delicate beauty shone like an exploding star. I felt so honoured and humbled to be in the presence of deities.

Next W/we perchance happened upon an Irish whiskey experience. A totally enjoyable tour led to the tasting of some tasty beverages as Samuel l Jackson would say. Although, perhaps, Goddess and HeadMistress may say different. From there W/we gave up on shopping and went to what I hoped would be a highlighted for Goddess.

The Gin palace, W/we ordered three cocktails myself a pink Lady, which was heavenly and so appropriate. I was bonding with both my heavenly companions during this time and feeling more like a gurl, than any amount of clothes or make up or lipstick or very high heels. I was feminine and just enjoying being a gurl, my masculinity fading with each moment I spent in the company of O/our wonderful patriarchs.

Of course, O/our last day together arrived too soon.As we were all leaving that day. W/we did something special and toured the Guinness warehouse. Which was so much fun. Especially when W/we stopped for coffee and gorgeous chocolate Guinness muffins, which both Superiors adored so much and took so many pics I thought I would never get to eat it tee hee.

From here W/we went on round the tour. Goddess wanted to get Her picture taken in a mock up scene, however Goddess couldn't reach the height that her head needed to be to fit in the picture. At this point Goddess, told me to get down on all fours so She could climb on my back. I did this immediately and was so proud that I had helped my Goddess. Then HeadMistress wanted to get Her pic too. I was delighted to help out again.

Next we learnt how to taste Guinness and pour our own pint, which W/we took to the very top to look out over Dublin's fair city. After this W/we did a little shopping and then sadly it was time for me to go catch my train. W/we hugged each and thanked each other for the great time W/we had. Goddess then pointed to Her cheek which I delicately kissed..... Then it was all over Unhappy
I can't wait until St Patrick's day...... "

My sissy earnt 59 stars on her report card for findom, sissy maid and sissy sub practices through the trip. Unfortunately all my pictures are corrupt so cant share any of the fun, but for those who follow my twitter there were plenty of pics on there.

Saturday, October 3rd 2015

back from tour

I am back from my tour of Isle of man and Ireland.
I had a lovely time eating, drinking with my Domme friend/mamasan and companions we met along the way. We ruined wallets and shopped with subbies money which left our suitcases very heavy coming back. One Lucky pet paid for our partners gifts.

In Isle of Man we did a nice double Domme session with a vile pet....loads of hard spanking and paddling to bruise his little pathetic arse while spitting on the disgusting thing....I kicked his pointless nether regions while he kissed/cleaned my Mamasan's Boots and thanked us for the privilege. We ended the humiliation session by pissing over the ugly pet and left him sitting in the wet patch as we walked away, laughing at how utterly pathetic he is. We watched the Blood moon change with a local photographer which made the night one to remember.

In Dublin we had a sissy, from sissy training, who served our drinks and brought our lunches. After Spending and offering us both tributes I handed over a lush pair of my used wet panties, pink ones which are the sissies colour. Had a random meet for drinks and smaller tributes which added to the fun of it all and of course more shopping followed.
My sissy Tweenie paid for a whiskey tour and the Guinness tour as well as an evening meal and some local pub tours where he gave us both a nice tribute. I was also given the key to the device which controls weak minded males. Such a wonderful time and the next steps in her training to becoming my little sissy girly.

Looking forward to more tours

Friday, September 11th 2015

subs reply to a task

I tasked my sissy sub to think about panties and his submission. His reply was very thought provoking and wanted to share it. I am more eager to see how he is being transformed into my sissy female companion when we meet on the ireland tour at the end of the month, where I will be taking him shoe shopping for first pair of heels.

Tweenieweenie

You have posed an interesting question Goddess. Being a submissive in panties. Where do I begin. I suppose like all guys, I love seeing girls in underwear. Especially when it is sexy. However I at that stage of my life I liked to look but would never dare wear. Of course as I got older and had more experiences, I liked the touch and feel of lace and silk. Knowing that they would yield some very fragrant and wonderful delights. Again at this stage I was happy to touch, but not wear. I guess as I found out more about Bdsm and developed as a sub, I liked Lycra and leather.

However when I realised yes I am a sissy, I was ordered into panties especially pink ones. I then found that I just loved the soft delicate touch of silk against my skin. The prettiness of lace. I have only ever bought pink panties and panties that are nearly g strings. They barely cover my clit and balls, although they are not large they do humiliatingly fit in the front of a g string.

When wearing panties, I do feel a wave of feminity rushing over me. I am feeling very submissive. Knowing that part of me is now more female like. It was very weird to start with as I was sure everyone knew, however as time has gone by I love the tightness on my balls and hips and the nakedness of my bottom.

Although not always realising I am wearing them I know they are there. I know the panties I wear are usually for Ladies on special occasions and usually Ladies wear more fuller panties. Which I think are more closer to guys pants, well y front type panties but I love pink frilly and sexy pants. I couldn't see myself in ordinary Ladies pants and as for granny pants no thank You!!!!!!!!

I do realise that the reason I am in panties is that I have give up control to a superior Female. I am to be emasculated and shown that due to my small clit, I am not useful to Females for pleasure and procreating. Therefore I am to be controlled and feminised to control my natural male instincts and to also subvert the natural effects of the tostesterone that flows through me.

I readily give this up as I have come to realise that I yearn for the control of a Dominant Female. I am unhappy unless I have a strong Female driving me to embrace my feminity which of course now as a sissy is all I want to be. I know I need to crawl before I can walk and then run. That part of being controlled is moving slowly. I would willingly wear panties everyday and never again wear male knickers. However I only have eight pairs so would have to buy them, of course after deciding with You Goddess.

So in conclusion, the feminity panties give me when I wear them, makes me feel submissive. The softness of the material is sensual to me. the eroticism of knowing I am doing something considered as taboo. I do also feel and wonder what it would be like to be wholly feminised. The thoughts vary from knowing that I am now a sissy albeit it in training to knowing that my life going forward will involve moments of discovery, joy and pain.

The control, I especially adore. Knowing that today i wore panties and my Goddess was so pleased I made Your Twitter page makes me feel proud. Knowing that I will go shopping for heels and be transformed, both things that will please You and at the same time be so strange and wonderful for me. Of course and as if You already didn't know, I want to be pierced and tattooed, if You decided that I am to be owned by You. All because I love to be told to wear silky sexy panties tee hee.

Wednesday, August 26th 2015

Pink Poodle meet

After 6 months of serving me online with consistent gifts and adoration messages, I allowed this Poodle to meet me in my home for a real time session.
He planned it very carefully and travelled three and a half hours to get to me so total travelling is 7 hours, this shows dedication to serving. He was counting down days, tenting in work at simple thoughts of cleaning and being excited at making my life easier for just one day.
He brought food to cook with and serve with, as well as taking myself and my Partner out for brunch. I allowed him to choose the meal he felt most comfortable with to cook as this was a first meeting and he does get nervous.

He came into my home in a smart suit and extremely presentable. Clean shaven, smelling nice and always with respect, holding doors open and awaiting to be invited into the rooms I walked in. Once shown around I ordered him to strip and fold his clothes neatly. I laughed at the pink thong I ordered him to wear for our meet.
After cleaning my home, while he was plugged with his first ever butt plug, I saw 3 infractions which he didnt pick up so 6 spanks where admitted. He then started to cook in the thong and an apron stating 'jenny's cupcake'. He cleaned as he went along and make sure the kitchen was spotless.

I then ordered him to my play space and to present my gifts. He had drawn me a lovely tribute picture which was a wonderful surprise, I love the personal touch and offer of something he took the time to make. He then offered a bottle of gin, Bombay sapphire, with the lime tonic which is my preference. On the bag he wrote a small note stating 'To my Beautiful Goddess, with lots of love, your pink poodle xx'. He brought me something he wasnt sure I had tried but he likes, cider. He also made a small chocolate cake for after the meal which he left in the fridge. Then came the money which he counted out in front of me and lay at my feet.

When I was happy with these, I allowed him to be a poodle for me, naked and in a collar he lay down in the cage for a while then only brought out to show My Partner the poodle and to give him a drink from his bowl.

Since time was getting on, and he had a three and half hour journey back and collect his son on the way we ended our session. He then requested to clean the toys and equipment used as a mark of respect before getting dressed. Such a wonderful polite pet. I also got the feeling he didnt wish to leave as he gushed with adoration and thank you's and how happy he was.

What a wonderful and enjoyable meeting, just a shame I doubt we can meet again for a long time.
Many things for new and older submissives to learn here on how to present themselves and the care offered when serving any Superior.

Monday, August 10th 2015

Weekend fun

What an interesting mix for the weekend, new and old submissives and my wonderful playroom.

Met a new cross dresser on Saturday, we felt each other out, slowly over the session. He was nicely presented and a pleasure to talk to. After explaining the rules and how I work I ordered him to strip and count out his money for me. He did so with enthusiasm.

Since this was a first session, I couldnt settle on his clothing.....dressing him in slutty attire and wiggling for me, then a maid outfit as he was caught fucking a maid roleplay then moved to where he was examined and had to be put in a babydoll since someone ran off with his clothes.

I started in latex but soon melted and had to change to nurse outfit which is how the last scene came about.

I do love giving spankings and building up harder and faster. Such a fun work out and the sound the slap makes connecting on skin *swoon* He sent a message the next day of his bruised behind and that he will see me in the future.

Sunday my sub came up, he cleaned mates flat all the while I ignored him, then begged to be in the new cage at mine. He has infractions on his cleaning at mates so will be discussed and punished accordingly. I cant wait *evil smirk*